everblessedpumpum:

Honestly, biphobia in the gay community is so much worse. Straight people will think you’re just confused or a hoe which is still erasure and it’s bad HOWEVER gay people will truly be willing to disown you if they find out you’re actually bisexual and not gay.

What is there to say? Everything is hard. Returning phone calls. Not choking when I try to speak. Getting out of bed. What is there to do? I put foot in front of foot and trust that I will not wobble enough to give myself away. I pour concrete into my mouth to have an excuse for struggling with answering questions. I stare at the window. Look at hills and think of five years from now, of eventual sleep, of digging a hole and jumping inside. Train myself to half-listen when others speak and still hear the noise in my chest. I nod appropriately. What else is there? Get up. Go. Go. Go. Pause. Go. Accelerate. Go. Go go go. No stop. No exit. No time to reflect. Just experience after experience, and then the shaky seconds spent recovering from them. Pouring black coffee into wounds. Getting your feelings hurt over people who are not thinking of you in that way, have never thought of you in that way. Waste time playing the game, the same game, hoping it will work this time around. I have put all of my effort into things that never wanted me back, in hopes that I could change their mind. How else can I communicate this? I do not want to try anything, with anyone, anymore.
Anything Anyone Anymore, Lora Mathis (via lora-mathis)
Fuck why are relationships so difficult sometimes?

I can’t wait until we can fuck as loud and as long as we want.
I can’t wait until we can shower together and lay around naked together.
Fuck this, “my roommates” bullshit.
I can’t wait until I’m the only roommate you have.

We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us is something valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch.
e.e cummings (via psych-facts)
I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. But I’ve been crying on and off for the last 3 hours.

And I just want to be high.